I’ll post a pic later!
It would be nice to find random messages in my inbox when I get back :/
Early day… Don’t feel like even going to class smh
The things he says that use to sweep me off my feet does nothing anymore.. All I do now is literally shake my head and look away, not necessarily to be stuck up or snobby but just sad, sad that it doesn’t work anymore. I feel all sorts of fucked up.
Words just don’t work anymore. I see the future and I see us being distant exes with awkward convos. Regrets and just plain failure. I just don’t have it in me anymore, I’m too lazy to even believe. Goes to show that people really do change whether they want to or not. The little things I needed back then to feel like I was enough I didn’t get and now that I am getting it I don’t believe it? Its a fucking lose-lose :’(
I just want to be left alone… Because I am alone and the pathetic scenario needs to match the pathetic story.
Uggh I’m gonna get started on that hole.
Getting use to loneliness numbs you.
- Supreme/Obey hats
- Doc Martens
- Jean jackets with self implanted studs
- Ripped jeans with bleach stains
- Fox tails
- Pins all over the place
- Camo anything
- Anything “Vintage”
- Varsity jackets
- Snap backs
- Nerd glasses
- Those chains made out of beads
- Oversized sweaters
- Leggings (high wasted, animal print, colored, distressed, tribal)
- Shirts cut in half
- Bow ties
- Anything with the American flag.
- Self proclaimed originality.
Dont get me wrong I have some of these things but I guarantee the folk I’m talking about wear them all at the same time.. lol
currently on repeat while do spanish homework an hour before class.
As much as its getting easier to accept the fact that we’re done it’s hard to know that we still communicate. I still feel lonely and semi-depressed, I still miss him all the time but I see myself getting use to being done. What happens now? *sighs*
Just finished eating dinner. Now I have to head to bed :/
On the flip side: Boondocks is on
sure enjoy and thank you!